My goal is to run the entire thing – no walking.
I started training for a 5k about 6 weeks ago. I’m surprised that I can now run about 15 minutes straight! It isn’t fast running, but its something more than I could do before.
My race is coming up on December 10, it’s the YuleFest 5K in Cambridge. I get a cool hat for registering, but I’d rather save a couple bucks of the $40 and not get it. No complaints though.
I’ve been training by trail running when I can and going to the gym and running on the treadmill when I can’t. I ran on the road on Thanksgiving which was a bit easier than I thought it would be.
Today I was supposed to run, but I was just too low. It’s hard to get the motivation sometimes to even get out of bed. How can I expect to be an athlete and surround myself with athletic people when I can’t even muster up the ability to get out of bed in the morning? I don’t know anyone else who has been in my situation. Athletically inclined but having major depression. I wonder how people normally find the motivation to go outside? To get dressed? To eat?
I wonder sometimes if the voice in my head telling me things are too hard and to stop will ever be hushed by my medications. Or maybe I can will them to stop. Sometimes I can if I’m having a good day, but lately they’re screaming instead of whispering.
I find that having friends who like to do the same things I do helps a bit. They invite me to go places and I feel obligated in order to keep the friendship. Lately I’ve been getting a lot of invites to ride bikes which is great, but also stressing me out.
Either way, I singed up for a 5K and now I have to commit.